IUI Tommorrow

ok ok......we are finally doing...shudder.....fertility treatment.....oooo its like a naughty secret. Hmmm, have a 20mm folli on my right side (very anxious little guy). Trigger tonight, IUI tom and thursday. I am praying that Hashem Blesses me with a positive outcome and that He sees fit to help my dream come true.

There said it. Its out there. Yes, I want this to work. ok, now to keep myself busy....tick tock tick tock

ye ye ye.......

I am soooooooooo over this week. It has sucked royally, except for last nights ice skating, where i was top of the class (and the class clown) lol.....

Having serious PMS (due on the weekend) and that sushi dinner last night wasnt the best of plans....woke my up at 3 in the moring to catch up on some light reading......

Still having dread thoughts about next month and terrified fibroids are recurring (having had horrible cramps since ovulation this month).......uh oh......

will find out next week, me guess........

Well we didnt go for the councelling. we were both freaked out.......

so we going to attempt an IUI before going the big guns and the IVF route. I figured out that a lot of my anger and insecurities was about transferrance. i kept blaming hubby, thinking he was dragging his feet, but in reality i was terrified of going through IVF with no success. So we are going to work our way through the system and do it slower but in a better mindset...

in the meantime lots of intimacy and bonding :D

So next cycle we start the scanning again and are on the road of the next chapter. Pray i dont wing out again .......

Thursday morning we have our councelling session with the nurse. I am looking forward to getting on the road with this IVF thing (and also understanding what it is all about). I think FS convinced DH that it was the best road to go, but of course he needs time for it to sink in. Luckily they spoke stats and it got into his stubborn, scorpio head haha......

So waiting for next week and in the meantime, keeping myself pretty busy with work and the world cup......... its sooooooooooooo noisy around here!!!!

long time no write!!!

Hey everyone,

shew what a crazy few months (of left sided ovulations i may add)...not one on the right side. i swore plenty in my CD10 scan this morning and on to IVF we go....whoppeeeee

hormones, injections and lots of procedures....ah well, the sacrafice is there to have a little rugrat....

all systems go (inlcuding the wallet lol)

kisses...................

Good grief, when it rains it pours...this month sucked

ok, so this was THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE perfect cycle except for the emotional part. I ovulated on my right. it was a good one, i could tell. I wanted to do an IUI but DH was blindsided by all this and needless to say it wasnt condusive to actually having the bloody thing done. so we didnt. i am heartsore but i am ok cos DH has been so nice this last week and i know he feels as crappy as me.

so its probably gonna be another few cycles when i can do an IUI but hoping my right ovary suprises me next month and gives it another go.................

Waiting and waiting.................

CD24 today. Which means i am a few days from my AF (period for all you non TTCers)

I am crampy, irritated and just want to get this week over and done with so i can start a new cycle. Had a horrible 2 weeks of blood tests every 3 days. i am soooo over that one. I now have a fear of needles. As if i didnt have enough fears.....

but the good news is that I am finally off cipralex and coping. I am finding that i dont need it anymore and that is fab as the side effects were so crap. Even with my major case of PMS i havent threaten to divorce DH once this week (ok i did go off at him yesterday morning, but that was purely PMS instigated....)

Please G-d give me the patience to accept whichever ovary you chose to let me ovulate BUT if you 'happen' to use my right, i will be ever so gratefull and may even be nice to my mother

:D